uncertainty

Uncertainty. That is the definition of my life right now. I am living in a constantly changing world. I cannot stand it. One day something seems for sure. The next it is all up in the air again. My body and brain cannot handle it anymore. For once, I just want things to stand still. I want the good things to stay the same and the bad to change.

I miss the days when everything was almost always certain. I miss being told what school to go to and how to spend my time. I miss being sure of who my friends were. I miss the simplicity of life, as it was when I was younger.

My future is uncertain. And it does drive me crazy. But I know God has it in His hands. I just need to trust in Him and Him alone.

Matthew 6:31-34 “So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”