uncertainty

Uncertainty. That is the definition of my life right now. I am living in a constantly changing world. I cannot stand it. One day something seems for sure. The next it is all up in the air again. My body and brain cannot handle it anymore. For once, I just want things to stand still. I want the good things to stay the same and the bad to change.

I miss the days when everything was almost always certain. I miss being told what school to go to and how to spend my time. I miss being sure of who my friends were. I miss the simplicity of life, as it was when I was younger.

My future is uncertain. And it does drive me crazy. But I know God has it in His hands. I just need to trust in Him and Him alone.

Matthew 6:31-34 “So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

college life.

This whole college experience thing is teaching me quite a lot. 

One thing I am learning is who my real friends are. I figured out that my real friends are the ones who bring me up with their positivity. My friends are there for me even when they are thousands of miles away. My true friends can be away for months, but when we are reunited again it is like nothing has changed. I sincerely cherish my true friends. And I am so thankful to God for the great people He has placed in my life throughout the years. These true friends are precious treasures that are not easily or often discovered so I want to hold onto them forever!

Another thing I am learning and realizing is how important my family is to me. My parents and sisters are the best friends I will ever have. I am realizing now that I am so blessed to have a wonderful family. I am realizing that not everyone is fortunate enough to be in a loving family, and this makes me so thankful for my family! I am thankful for my parents and their wise words of advice and comfort when I am going through a hard time. I am thankful for my sisters for listening to me vent about all sorts of things and for telling me the truth about my outfits on sunday mornings. I love them :)

Finally, being here at school with not many people to count on, I have been learning to fully and completely rely on God for He will never let me down. I am trusting Him to provide for me in all areas of my life, and I know He will see me through the hard times.